Love, D.

I've been meaning to write for a very long time already. It's like I literally have no time to even sleep sometime. Now that 2018 has finally come to an end, I feel like I have to write something since this year has been very difficult for me. If I were to say how bad it was, remember when in bahasa people always say, "hidup ni bagaikan roda, kadang kita di atas kadang kita di bawah" or "life is full of ups and downs"? Well, 2018 for me is like the very bottom of the wheel and it hit a very big rock and it stopped for a little while there. So how exactly has 2018 treated me? Well, that sounded a little selfish though. So how exactly have I spent my 2018? To put it in some sort of a phrase, I would say 2018 was the start of my journey to adulthood and it was definitely not a good one. Looking back in the days of 2018, I actually did something very big. I actually freaking MOVED TO ANOTHER COUNTRY. Though it wasn't my first time being apart from my fa

Assalamualaikum and hi, my dear imaginary readers! It's been a very long time since the last time I wrote. I know I promised an end-year post or at least a new year post or whatnot but now it's already August so yeah. I've been busy (malas sebenarnya) with my so-called new life? condition? Something like that. I've been living in Japan for 5 months already. So macam I'm struggling to adapt lah. Kalau nak cerita the whole thing; studies, kawan, everyday life semua tu, I think I need a veryyyy long post for that. So basically, I'm still trying to accept the fact that I'm studying abroad and kena terima lah whatever the challenges are. Sometimes tu macam amazed gila with the fact that I used to be a very motivated person. Like if I'm determined to do something, I'll do it. Tapi sekarang, I feel like I'm a very negative person. I don't feel like myself dah. So, finding myself is one of the struggles jugak sekarang ni. Actually, this time