growing up and surviving

Assalamualaikum. It's been a long time since my last post here. It was last year I guess.

Okay, so, the other day, I saw Anwar Hadi's tweet about 'describe yourself using verbs' thing and I finally figured out mine. I am so growing up and surviving. Ya Allah god knows how much I have to go through in the process of growing up and obviously I am still finding ways to survive in the path that I chose. Not that I regret in what I had chosen, but no doubt, it's hard and complicated. Growing up sucks. It's not the cliche thing or statement that you always hear, but it's just the reality. When people say life finally starts when you graduated from high school, it's true. Everything ahead of you is by your own choice. I mean, from every aspect. From the very complicated matter like where you going to continue your studies, who your friends are, what person you going to be in the future until to the very simple situation like where you going to eat or what to wear to class tomorrow. Life after school is like you on your own. You don't just feel you are a grown-up, you are a grown-up. In every 場合, you have to make your own decision. 

One thing I learn about surviving in being a grown-up is that there's a reason for something to happen or to be there. And again, it's cliche to hear that. But yeah. There's always a 'why' that something is there, for you. For example, when you did not score in the exam. Well, I'll skip on the religion part of maybe if you did score, you will be arrogant or over-confident of yourself. But, look around you. As for me, when something bad happens, I try to look around, find the reason for me to be strong. Family, friends, teachers, they are all still there. Even if they don't say it, you know, some people, they just care for you.

And for that, I know, the fact that I still live until today, too, have reasons. Only that I have to find them.

Love, assalamualaikum.

d.