#np Dugaannya- Hujan

I always have moments in my life that I feel like there's no one to talk to, no one to cry with or even no one to spend my daily life with. I mean, especially in every single month, I will always feel like that (not sure if its just 'that' time of the month ke apa but yeah). Bukan literally takde siapa, tapi macam even if there is someone beside me at the moment, I can't really express out apa apa pun yang tengah ada in my mind. Tak kisah lah whether I'm extremely happy or extremely sad.

The fact that I'm in uni life now, makes everything extra difficult. I'll always feel like everyone dah move on with their own life especially my high school friends. Contohnya lah kan, nak cakap pasal hal uni macam studies or guys or friends kat sini, high school friends, they can't really do anything about it. I mean, yelah bila nak start cerita pun, you have to tell them from A to Z. Cerita tu confirm lah bersangkut paut, so you can't really put it in words easily. Plus, they have their own life jugak. They have their own problem jugak. So, last sekali, give up and end up pendam.

That's just how I am. I tend to not to tell my story. Lagi lagi bila reunion dengan kawan-kawan lama or even with my siblings, I love to hear their stories just because I don't have anything to tell. Even if I do, I don't know how to. I tend to keep so many things to myself sebab I don't want people to judge and I seriously don't how to put it in words.

Hmm, I have so many things to write and tell but I can't really find the right words. Sedihnya. I'm so stressed out sebab so many reports to do tapi procrastinate, ada homework but I don't know how to do, ada masalah guys tapi takde siapa kisah and etc. So yeah, bertabahlah seorang Adilah. Hope you don't have a messy life like mine, bye!

Love, assalamualaikum,

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