大変 is tired

the picture has nothing to do with what I am going to say in this post. so, penatnya hidup. entahlah seikatsu dekat high school is way way way better than university life. no, like seriously. tak tahu lah kan for other people in other universities, tapi, as an MJHEP or JAD student, sangat sangat taihen. anyone who wanted to join this program, be prepared tu je nak nasihat. matriculation year sangat penat, just like sekolah. just that, the difference is, you have to worry about your studies. bila dekat sekolah, you can just study as you like, without worrying about being dismissed. seriously, if you fail nihongo, dismissed weh. no matter in what semester you are in.  honestly, at first, of course this is not my first choice. bila orang tanya why chose JAD? my answer would definitely be because JAD is the first offer. so, if I let it go, I might regret it. just like everybody else. kenapa offer UIA law I turned down, it's because I supposed Allah had shown me the right path after istikharah, I hope. tapi tulah, to  go through everyday is like almost impossible especially after Ain left. sebab, just like when I first enter sepintar, I can't find any reason to be happy when going back to school. but now, I am like, obsessed with my school. haha. so, I hope, the same thing goes when I chose this path.

p/s: so, if you ever wondered why my blog ada nihongo or japanese language somewhere, ketahuilah bahawa SAYA PELAJAR JAD; jepun aku datang.

till then, 

d.