Love, D.

Assalamualaikum and hi, my imaginary readers. *long sigh* Oh my this blog feels ancient. My last post was like what, March? and now it's already July. It's just almost 3 months but felt like one long year has passed. As most of you guys know, I am currently working now. Like working, working - doing real work, meetings and whatnot. But that's a whole other story and today I wasn't going to talk about that. I've been meaning to write for ages but just couldn't find the right words to express myself and of course, time-constraint.  Today's post, I actually wanted to tell you guys -- after god knows how long being in a reading slump, I'm finally reading again. Although have to admit, so far I can only manage to read while commuting and still struggling to stay focus and awake. I feel like I'm in a battle for every sentence that I'm reading. But anyway, as per all the books that I always ended up reading, the book that I'm reading now to

Assalamualaikum and hi, my imaginary readers.  It's been quite a while since I last write. And finally, here's my very first post for this year.  It's March already if you guys haven't noticed and you guys gotta agree with me that this year have been so fast so far right? Well TMI about me? Nothing much had happened except that I am no longer a student. Although it's not official yet and unfortunately, I can't really make a big deal out of it. As some of you might not know, due to the recent Covid-19 epidemic, my graduation ceremony got cancelled. Somehow, I am still in denial and don't know how to counter these sad feelings yet. Also, please take care of yourselves ya guys and remember to frequently wash hands with soap okay? Anyway, I'm back home in Malaysia now and I'm going back to Japan in four days (pls pray that I'll be fine) and I have encountered few things that made me think again about the movie Aiman Azlan recommended

Assalamualaikum and hi, my imaginary readers.  I don't even know where to start. All this while, I have always been saying that I hate how a year went and how there are so many things that I have regretted throughout the year. But, I can finally say that I love this year and very thankful for how this decade ends. For all these years being a kid, being in school, I can only imagine how complicated and exciting being an adult is. And when I started to enter my 20s 2 years back, I finally got a taste of how adult life is. But this year is different. This year is the last year I am officially no longer a student. I AM NOT GOING TO BE A STUDENT ANYMORE. Well for the time being at least. Though I am still going to keep learning in everything that I do, it's different. I can't even imagine being in a working environment. Officially an ADULT.  I've met so many new people, but I still cut ties with some. I travelled quite a few times and really really grateful for that.

Assalamualaikum and hi to all my imaginary readers! I wonder if I ever can be a legit blogger. I can't even keep up with posting regularly. I procrastinate a lot and I am always out of ideas. It's amazing how Aida Azlin can do it- writing Tuesday's Love Letter, weekly. Like today, since I am off from my part-time job, I took a day-off from doing my research (read: refuse to go to the university ( and this is not very healthy cause I actually have so many things to do and my research is actually meeting a dead end and I definitely have to find something else in order for me to graduate )) and forced myself to take a shower, dressed up and took a train to the nearest Starbucks and here I am, sitting at a table, writing while drinking Venti size of Caramel Macchiato. Not like I'm obligated to write a blog post or anything, just that I feel like I have to get some things out of my head since it's getting a lot messier. So, getting back to the title- Am I on the

Assalamualaikum and hi, my imaginary readers! How's your Ramadhan so far? I really hope the holy month brings us the utmost in peace and had brought us closer to Allah not just in the month itself, but I pray that the spirit of Ramadhan remains in our hearts and lights up our souls from within. Also, I hope the remaining days of our Ramadhan will be filled with many ibadahs and hope we all get to find Laylatul Qadr (disclaimer: copy-pasting sentences from postcards I've sent out).  As this is the second year that I have spent and may or may not be the last year that I will spend Ramadhan abroad, away from my family, I've decided to write a post about it. Though I thought I have so many things to talk about which I supposed to have to, but now the words are just not coming out. Anyways, I hope when you are reading this, you are actually wondering how different it is to celebrate Ramadhan, not in the place or situation or among people that you are used to. I

Assalamualaikum and hi, my imaginary readers! Funny thing- my very first post in 2019! How are you guys, been well? These few days I’ve been here and there and emotionally unstable. I’m not sure whether it’s the time of the month or what but when I checked it’s not it (so I can’t really blame it on my menses). Come to think about it, I am at one of the peaks in my life. Not a good kind of peak but a very miserable one. Making decisions. One of the things that I’m not just not good at but also hate to do. That and also growing up. Growing up is so messy especially because it’s not a destination, it’s a journey. And it’s filled with thorns and so many falling downs.   Wish I could tell you guys, my imaginary readers, what my dilemmas are. But I think I have to deal with it on my own first. I really miss writing and will be posting a lengthy post, soon I hope. Hope it’s not too late to wish you guys happy fasting and Ramadhan al-Mubarak! Love,  D .